If I Die Tomorrow

Posted by Fidelity in creative writing, inspired, my life

I want to live today

In order to live free, today. I must let go of all inhibitions. The difference between living free in Christ and free in the world is like a kite.

My past mistakes, heartbreaks and even memories that leave a sweeter ache all tie me down to the past.

I constantly wrangle with saying, "Cool, I'm going to live free without a care in the world because I gave all of those to God. So I'm going to run with, against, and swirl with the wind -- lost in the breeze -- until I land somewhere nice and comfy; because once I'm there, I'm sure that cozy seat is 'of God'." But, as much as I want to embrace this "free spirit" lifestyle I can't. There's nothing noble in distancing yourself so far from feeling that you've lost all reason to care.

Feelings, passion, genuine raw emotions are the fragrances of the world.

Bland food, bland people, bland world are unattractiveness at its finest. The zest of life is found in the string of the kite. Instead of cutting the string from the hand-holder to the kite and saying, "gone with the wind," I need to turn my head upside down and possibly throw in a slap of reality. The kite is meant to fly billowing in the sky.

The kite can't fly without it's string.

Because you see, the hand that's holding the string, or rather, the hand that's holding my hand through life is Jesus. He wants to see me fly. That's what he created me to do.

Before I Die, I pray that I live. I cannot live if I don't grasp what living looks like. Living doesn't look like instagram 'likes' and it doesn't sound like text message buzzes. It doesn't come in the shape of rose petals on my bedroom floor. Life comes in the freedom to know I was made to fly. We, as humans, are so used to driving our own cars that we forget not only what it looks like -- but that we can fly.

As you convict my heart may I let go of my yesterdays, so that I can enjoy my todays... I give all my grimmy so you can make it shinny. May the crux of my faith not be looking backwards for spiritual sustenance but forward.

Christianity hinges on repentance. I can't do away with sin through redefinition. Christ does away with sin through redemption. Like everyone else in this broken world, I am a great sinner. But Christ is a great Savior.

Thanks for this reminder Lord.

living in love and loving in light.
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prayers of my life:

"Father God, thank You for Your grace and mercy in my life. Thank You for believing in me, for giving me a hope and a future. Today I choose to stretch; I choose increase; I choose to rise up higher so that I can be all You’ve created me to be. In Jesus' Name. Amen."

Dear Lord, I want to please you with my words of my mouth and meditations of my heart. I want to spark a revolution for our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I pray that you let my whole life be a blazing offering, a life that shouts and sings the greatness of the king. Bend me and mold me use me for your glory. In Jesus' name. Amen

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

2 corinthians 4:7-12

The gospel so much exceeds the law in glory, that it eclipses the glory of the legal dispensation. But even the New Testament will be a killing letter, if shown as a mere system or form, and without dependence on God the Holy Spirit, to give it a quickening power. (2Co 3:12-18)

Dear Lord, I need Your loving touch today. Let Your love song wash over me and fill my heart. I release my feelings of doubt to You and rest in Your undying love. In Jesus' Name, Amen.