Late Night Bewilderment

Posted by Fidelity in creative writing, my life

If I could take away every mistake I've ever made in life I wonder where I'd be?

Oddly enough, I believe I'd be in this exact place I am right now. Because those weren't mistakes... they were lessons and opportunities for growth. If I continue to make the same mess-ups then it's obvious I haven't learned from my mistakes. Until I allow myself to let go and change will I ever be able to move onto bigger things and tackle my next challenge.

I need to first change my outlook and realize

a) I am not in control

b) The one who is, is greater than I

c) where I am now is exactly where I need to be
d) I will never be in over my head, for my God goes before and with me

e) If I look at my trials as opportunities to become a better, wiser, stronger me than I think I will no longer moan and groan but instead lift my hands up and thank God for caring enough to sanctify me

"If your actions inspire others to dream more, learn more, do more and become more, you are a leader." - John Quincy Adams

prayers of my life:

"Father God, thank You for Your grace and mercy in my life. Thank You for believing in me, for giving me a hope and a future. Today I choose to stretch; I choose increase; I choose to rise up higher so that I can be all You’ve created me to be. In Jesus' Name. Amen."

Dear Lord, I want to please you with my words of my mouth and meditations of my heart. I want to spark a revolution for our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I pray that you let my whole life be a blazing offering, a life that shouts and sings the greatness of the king. Bend me and mold me use me for your glory. In Jesus' name. Amen

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

2 corinthians 4:7-12

The gospel so much exceeds the law in glory, that it eclipses the glory of the legal dispensation. But even the New Testament will be a killing letter, if shown as a mere system or form, and without dependence on God the Holy Spirit, to give it a quickening power. (2Co 3:12-18)

Dear Lord, I need Your loving touch today. Let Your love song wash over me and fill my heart. I release my feelings of doubt to You and rest in Your undying love. In Jesus' Name, Amen.