is it weird?

Posted by Fidelity in

is it weird that I won the "weight lifter of the fall" award (one of 3 people on the team) and for some reason I feel like this is the biggest award of my whole life? I'm like crazy excited about it.
is it weird that I feel prettier in a t shirt and sweats than I do in tight top and jeans?
is it weird that all I wanna do is write lists and ideas down constantly?
is it weird to think that I have a voice. That somewhere in this nut of a head I have ideas worthy of being heard?
is it weird?
is it weird that I feel lost at times. Like I'm a sound bite of an award winning song, but my piece doesn't fit in the song. That I'm out of place or forced in?
is it weird that I'm questioning my purpose, my goal, my dreams, my life?
is it weird?
is it weird that I'm writing an "is this weird" paragraph on my blog?
I.just.don't.know.
but until I do...
I guess I'll just continue being weird.

prayers of my life:

"Father God, thank You for Your grace and mercy in my life. Thank You for believing in me, for giving me a hope and a future. Today I choose to stretch; I choose increase; I choose to rise up higher so that I can be all You’ve created me to be. In Jesus' Name. Amen."

Dear Lord, I want to please you with my words of my mouth and meditations of my heart. I want to spark a revolution for our Lord and savior Jesus Christ. I pray that you let my whole life be a blazing offering, a life that shouts and sings the greatness of the king. Bend me and mold me use me for your glory. In Jesus' name. Amen

But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.

2 corinthians 4:7-12

The gospel so much exceeds the law in glory, that it eclipses the glory of the legal dispensation. But even the New Testament will be a killing letter, if shown as a mere system or form, and without dependence on God the Holy Spirit, to give it a quickening power. (2Co 3:12-18)

Dear Lord, I need Your loving touch today. Let Your love song wash over me and fill my heart. I release my feelings of doubt to You and rest in Your undying love. In Jesus' Name, Amen.